It is with a heavy heart that I write today that Frostie’s cycle did not work out and we are not pregnant after Round 2 of IVF. Our one and only frozen embryo is gone. There aren’t really any words to describe what that feels like except that we are devastated.
The list of questions that I have is a million miles long right now. We’ve decided to take a break for the rest of 2016 and pick back up treatment in 2017. I will say that it was incredibly kind of my RE to call me directly to deliver the bad news, I’ve always had a nurse call and give it to me. I’ll be making a consult for sometime in December to go over next steps- which I’m assuming will include genetic screening for any future embryos that we might get.
Right now, we’re also trying to figure out what our limits are- it’s now pretty clear that not being able to have biological children is a real possibility for us and neither of us is sure how we feel about that. Physically, I think I could take a couple of more rounds of IVF and since we are lucky enough to live in a state that mandates fertility coverage, that’s an option, but emotionally, this is… A lot. To say the least.
While we’re doing our treatment break, we’ve decided to take dedicate November to a Month of Me. We’re going to live life like the young married couple that we are- sans all of the grief and stress that comes along with infertility. We’re going to practice self-care in some way or another every day and use the time surrounding the holidays to refocus on ourselves and each other. I hope to post a few times about what we’re doing in case anyone else would like some ideas on how to try and recover from a failed cycle.
Thank you so much for your well wishes and support during my FET, I’m incredibly grateful.